You're the dream that hasn't ended

Thu, 26 Jul 2007 08:38:35 GMT

I was going to post a survey thing because i forgot about livejournal, but i couldnt finish it.

I need to apply for school... somewhere.
I have no clue what I want to do with my life.

I dont want to be in Fresno, everyone is leaving here.
I just want to be on my own and not have to tiptoe around anymore.

somehow im thinking moving away will make it easier to live like this.
but everything is give and take.

And I think i'll continue to think with my heart.

I read alot of books this summer, and now I need to go get a job.

Tue, 30 Aug 2005 21:31:19 GMT

Being sick in the summertime sucks alot.
Ive got the chills, a horrible headache, body aches, and a stomachache is starting in.
I missed school today :-/
Im so scared/nervous right now cause I missed TWO tests, and idk what to do bout it.
I couldnt go to school today, i felt too crappy, but this nervous feeling is making everything worse.

I decided I need to sit down today and write.
Because im so confused right now, and I just need to get everything off my chest.

Okay, thats all for today.

Sun, 21 Aug 2005 04:56:57 GMT

"Home on a saturday night, with all my doors locked up tight..."

Today was one of the most uneventful days since, well, since my last completly uneventful day.
(which unsuprisingly wasnt too long ago.)
But ya know, it doesnt bug me.
Atleast im not one of those douchebags that goes out every single day just looking to get trashed and/or laid.
I have all good intentions.
And I guess thats one thing i've got going for me.
(even if no one else notices.)

I went to patricia house yesterday.
She got me taco bell.
We just sorta hung around, and it was good times indeed.

Of all the lyrics, and all the bands, good or bad, I can relate to Blink 182's lyrics the most.
Always.
And dont waste your time telling me that Blink 182 sucks, cause I dont remember EVER asking for your opinon.
(not right now atleast :-))

I sorta wanna go out and do something.
I think I have 20 bucks laying around somewhere.
So yea, give me a call.
We'll hang.
Like ballzzz.

I've been writing like mad.
We still need a trumpet and trombone for our ska band.
So lemme know if you play, were more desperate than a drunk horny cheerleader on prom night!

My parents think I need money.
Probably because I do.
So I have been forced to babysit a 3 year old once a week.
Its not like I had anything better to do on thursday nights, but still...
My parents dont understand, im not the "babysitting" type.
Whatever. Cash is cash, and im sick of eating Taco Bell everyday because im broke.

I'll be up way late, cause I slept til noon, and did nothing today.
So IM me FOOLS.

"...some girls try too hard."

Thu, 18 Aug 2005 04:03:01 GMT

20 days til Patricias birthday.
I'm too lazy to figure out how many til mine...
44? Maybe.

I got my license finally.

Other than that...

nothin'.

Fri, 29 Apr 2005 00:08:26 GMT

Blink 182 "Dick Lips"

"Please Mom,
You ground me all the time
I know that I was right all along
And I'm hoping
Remember I'm a kid
I know not what I did, just havin' fun
Couldn't wait
For something new
And yesterday
I thought of you
It left me to think as if I couldn't walk away
It's too late
I fell through
Nothing to lose
A boy who went out when he finished all his chores
Nothing to do
They can't trust me
Because I blew it once before

Shit Dad,
Please don't kick my ass
I know I've seen you trashed at least one time
Can I blame it
On one of my dumb friends?
It's been awhile since I've used that line

You couldn't wait
For something new
And yesterday
I thought of you
It left me to think as if I couldn't walk away
It's too late
I fell through
Nothing to lose
A boy who went out when he finished all his chores
Nothing to do
They can't trust me
Because I blew it once before

Alright!

Nothing to lose
A boy who went out when he finished all his chores
Nothing to do
They can't trust me
Because I blew it once before"

Thu, 20 Jan 2005 18:10:44 GMT

So, i've been told to update this site more often. I personally like xanga better, but eh, whatever. We are doing java programming, woo hoo :-(. Bah im so bored. I can't think of anything to really write about... Oh yeah, I was pondering something last night... So here it goes... Is it possible to go from a person who loves to be around people, to a person who loves solitude. I just like sitting in my room and watching movies or just sitting in the car listening to music (im wierd, i feel most comforted in the car)... I dont care about hanging out with everyone I can see.. I have my friends, my few good friends, and I go out with them. The rest of the people, well, fuck 'em. I spent too many years living my life for everyone else, in hopes that maybe id have a bizzilon-trillion friends. Maybe cause I went through elementary and jr.high with like 3 friends, total. But after getting to know more people who I would have ever liked to get to know, I have decided that (as cliche as it sounds) 2 or 3 REALLY GOOD friends is better than 20 or 30 acquaintances. Dont get me wrong, I love meeting new people, but dont expect me to call you. This class is STUPID. I better go now, I think I broke my computer. Bye Bye. (oh yeah, I HATE when people say, "Working hard, or hardly working?!")

Tue, 19 Oct 2004 03:01:42 GMT

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Tue, 28 Sep 2004 16:06:30 GMT

My toe fucking hurts.

Sun, 26 Sep 2004 07:11:17 GMT

"You're a touch overrated, you're a lush, and I hate it
but these grass stains on my knees, they wont mean a thing.
(and all I need to know is that i'm something you'll be missing)"

So yeah. My life = band. How sad is that? Oh well. Band brings drama between people, I guess because we are forced to be around each other so much and everytime we are around each other we are pissed off. On a another note, me and john went fish shopping today. His fish are hottt. Yeah, bitches. Im so tired and I dont know what im saying. Bye Bye.

Thu, 23 Sep 2004 16:02:33 GMT

I couldn't update xanga because this computer is LAME, so i'll just say it all here.
::deep breath::
Okay here it goes...
I am a person who always thinks the best and hopes for the best and wishes the best and wants the best, and I have always considerd most anyone who will talk to me a friend. I consider people who have betrayed me a friend. And I consider people who use me a friend. My god im sick of being used. Im a good friend and I will continue to be, im just NOW realizing that I can count my true friends on one hand if im lucky. I want to move out of fresno. I cant stand the small town life, and I know everyone and thier mothers say that, but I mean it. I want to move somewhere were there is always something to do and I dont have to see the faces of people I despise. I HATE RIVERPARK. Whenever I go I see a bunch of 13 year old kids, showing off thier boobs and smoking. I dont want to move away and start over, because I have spent that past 16 years discoverng who I am, and I LOVE the person I am, and I love the fact that I can say that. I just want to be myself somewhere else. And the people that I care about agree with my completly, and the only thing that would hold me back from moving would be them. I dont know what im talking about. I have someone I like and I have someone I love, its a great feeling.
I dont have much more to say
So I think I will hit update now and then regret it and delete this post in a matter of minutes, or maybe for once I will actually say whats on my mind and leave this post on here, that would be nice.
<3???
I think so.

Wed, 22 Sep 2004 05:32:04 GMT

I stayed home today, because I just really didn'y feel like going to school. I didn't go to band either cause I had a headache and im a lazy ass. SO today I ate toast and watched slackers, listened to music, and updated xanga alot. It was a good day, haha. I hope I dont have alot of work to make up, oh well. Well, im bored, Bye Bye.

Mon, 20 Sep 2004 16:05:56 GMT

So, this weekend sucked. Saturday I put my fist through a door out of anger, then sunday I had to fix it, I didnt get grounded for it which was strange, I feel sick, i love the weather but it makes me feel like shit when it decides to randomly be cold, or hot. I care about my friends and certain people much more than I probably should. This week will be busy, but I like it that way, it leaves me with less time to think. Im afraid to go to band, since pena is probably still PISSED at me for being a jackass on the feild at the game. Oh well, it wasnt my fault. So thats all I want to type, and thats all you want to read. Bye Bye.

omgz like maybe HOTTT guyz will like comment!!!

Mon, 20 Sep 2004 05:24:41 GMT

your lame, this weekend was lame, this tv show is lame, im lame. FIN.

Thu, 16 Sep 2004 16:50:52 GMT

So, I got voted "never changed". I guess I havent really changed that much, but I dont know. Physically I look the same, but I like to think mentally I have grown up, at least a little bit. We got our uniforms for band, and mine is all poofy in the crotch region and the lady told me it was because my ass wasnt big enough. Pssh, lame asses. What was the point of doing all these mesaurments if I was going to get one that had to be talored anyways?! Oh well, im sure i'll live. WOoooOooo I get my muffin before next period. Fucking 90 cents for a muffin and chocolate milk GRRR. Well, its cold, and im bored, im going to go walk around an try to un-freeze myself. Oo or myabe i'll play yahoo pool. WHUT_EVAH! Bye Bye.

Mon, 13 Sep 2004 23:58:03 GMT

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Sun, 12 Sep 2004 20:46:06 GMT

Dammit.
YOUR GIRLFRIEND SUCKS.

Thu, 09 Sep 2004 17:24:00 GMT

I have a mysterious bruise on my arm.

Its in a very inconvenient spot as well, I keep hitting it on the desk and making it worse. I still dont own a cell phone, its sucks, man. Id ask for one for my birthday, but I have other things I want more. I have the same color shirt as the person sitting next to me... coincidence? I think not. I have band next period, but the air quality is to bad to march, so boooya pena. Band nazi ass. I want to go bowling, I think I shall go on saturday, for fun... because if I dont do something on saturday i'l be bored and somehow convince myself to go to band practice. I need a hoby, ha. Someone told me something today that made me mad, i hate how people can be so hypocritical and not even notice it. 98% of the guys at this school suck, it... sucks, haha. b00m. Oo, I like the 0's on this computer. WUT-EVAH!

Tue, 07 Sep 2004 16:47:01 GMT

I have nothing to say right now, i'll update when I get home.
Band Practice tonight... LAME.

Wed, 01 Sep 2004 06:34:53 GMT

for once, let me be the voice in the back of your head.

Tue, 31 Aug 2004 16:15:21 GMT

hey dogz!!!!! wuz up g*money

...ray (the dark moogle) decided to update my journal for me.

Mon, 30 Aug 2004 16:05:39 GMT

So yeah apache notes suck. Both john and patricia are dying. So that sucks. We are getting our quizes back in computers. I hope I did okay, cause it would be embarassing to like fail it, since im supposed to know alot about computers. Steph is dying and singing. I'll be dying in your arms toooonniiigghhhtt. So yeah, I hve been noticing something, and it sucks, but oh well... its something i'll just have to deal with, because you cant change people.

Mon, 30 Aug 2004 03:25:49 GMT

I ponderd, but now i freakiiing have to sneeze. Hmmm... So my day consisted of watching the world series of poker and drinking a diet coke, how was your day?
...no, seriously, tell me how your day was, I like comments.

Sun, 29 Aug 2004 19:46:00 GMT

I need to ponder.

Sun, 29 Aug 2004 07:05:13 GMT

screw my last few entries
I just remembered why I fucking love pop-punk.
Man, tonight was great. And thats all I want to say about that.

Sat, 28 Aug 2004 19:28:15 GMT

John Cusack is h0t.
I have my permit test at the DMV monday. Iv'e been studying but my parents think I havent, so they are being assholes. What they dont realize is I study when they arent around. I hate when my parents know im studying or doing homework. I always lie about having it, then I go in my room and do it secretly, how lame is that? Well im going to go take a shower. BAh, bullshit.
Okay im done being angry. John is going to come save me from my boring house, so yay for him. The downside to it: I have to teach him the first alto part to all our band music... woo hoo? not really.